Tuesday, March 9, 2010

~whirling...yup, my head is whirling~

...things are moving and shifting, picking up pace in such a way that has me nearly breathless. Remember how I just mentioned the need for patience...and faith. well........


Those of you that have been visiting me here for a while know that we have been living in a state of limbo. A BIG HUGE massive shwack of limbo, in between, laying in wait...what ever you want to call it the basic translation is: we have had no idea what lay ahead of us.

no clue.

zip.zero.ziltch


I've mention my "Monet vision" of the future....feelings, colors, rough outlines. But details? nope. details have been out of my reach.


until this week.


this week has brought with it a sense of almost unnerving clarity.


For those of you just joining me here I'll give you the brief low down.

We sold our house and moved to this little hamlet of loveliness in September...rented a sweet not-so-little place on the lake, knowing it was temporary and gave "moving back" a whirl. (being here is hard for me..much baggage and "stuff" to work through)

My Dad, who has advanced lung cancer, moved in with us in November. The longer he is with us the more we see that really, this is why we came here. So that he could settle with us while receiving his treatment at a near by major hospital.

All of this time we are trying to decide...do we stay here?? do we look elsewhere?? what does our family need?

All of the while my heart, yearning to be settled, understands that I must be patient and that once we are settled the time to adopt will near and my arms will be full of sweet, chocolate babes...completeness.


This week?


Something shifted at my hubbies work place. The proverbial "straw"...

The reason we choose this village in the first place was work. Adam could return to his previous employer...increased wage/respected position...yadayadayada. job security near good friends.


HA!


not so much. (because we must learn that what we think we have we often don't...maybe this is how we learn to value what we do??)


My dear hubby has become increasingly worried about the situation. But when he showed up one afternoon because there was no work the alarm bells began to clang. loudly. and over the next 2 weeks the volume increased until we could not ignore it...the time had come. the shift. the propelling event that would move us out of limbo and on a very clear path.


more on that soon...for now, whilst everything is being sorted I will leave you with this image:




is it possible I might actually be able to unpack soon??? (no, I have not yet unpacked...yes I realize that we've been here 7 months☺) Please pray for sanity and clarity...and will need both in generous portions!!
note to self: remember to breathe!



7 comments:

Casey Hunt said...

Yes, breathe, breathe, breathe. Your village sounds amazing! I don't think I was following your blog at the time you moved and I went back and caught up. Whatever IT is, whatever you decide...I am sending you blessings of peace and of deep, deep breaths. :)

Evelyn said...

Jenn, Hoping for clarity, security and safety your way. Sounds like things are really spinning there and I hope it all settles well. Yes, breathe. Hope.

Hoping alongside you,

Evelyn

L.T. Elliot said...

Praying and hoping for you. Hope you unpack soon. *hugs*

kristine said...

Oh my goodness gracious...
i did not know all of this...
How wonderful you are there for your father

how scary the job situation
i went through it last year

hold on...life is about nothing if not about change

Mark and Heidi said...

Oooo! I was hoping it was something like this. What a cliff hanger of a post! Praying for sanity and clarity and completeness. Remember the duck!

Julie. R to tha A to tha C said...

i still think you guys should move here. tons of work. tons of selfish reasons for myself as well :)

Candace S. said...

All I have to say is "WOW", I am so glad limbo is finally going away for you guys. Sorry to hear of the work situation not working out so well and hoping and praying things go much, much better with the move. :D Do you have friends in the new town too?? Fingers, toes, legs, arms and anything else I can cross are crossed for you.